What have I become?

I'm in despair.

I almost feel like there's just no point. Honestly, how would you feel?

I was just surfin Youtube the other night, and I thought it'd be cool to see my future self on there, so I typed 'Rock God'.

And there I was. Rokgod. Mr Mature Aged Man, playing to the crowd of millions. I even spelled my name that little more phonetically to keep up with the times. Just me, my computer and my mic, broadcasting my original songs for all Tubers to see.

Is this what I become? A long haired fucking hippy? What happened to my dreams? The dreams where I'm rockin the stadiums out? It hurts to see this, its almost humbling.

And seeing this, what do I do now? Carry on for my fans or throw it all in the air and walk away to become a contributing part of society?

This is the hardest moment of my life.



I have Paul's promise that on this day, he'll make it painless and quick.